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Just a Little Something On My Mind

My mind has been on my cousin these last few days. A few years ago, March 14, 2007, my cousin was shot out on the street and was killed. He was in his late 20's. What were the events that led up to that? What was that about? You know, people can say what they want..maybe he was running with the wrong people. I didn't know my cousin that well in the "later years" before he died. That part of the family lives in California. So, its not like we were really in touch. I remember though, when we got to see each other when we were little. I remember that cute little face. I remember his chubby little hands holding a child size Sunny Delight Orange Juice...and most of all chasing our other cousin around the house yelling at him in spanish that he was going to pull out all his hair! I can hear it in spanish in my head, but I don't know how to spell it. lol I don't know what he was to other people at the time of his death. I don't know what he was up to or anything that he might have done. I just know that I remember that sweet face and my heart hurts. It hurts me that he is not here anymore on this earth. Yes, I know about God and Heaven, and I know exactly where he is. It is just so unbelievable that one of us cousins is gone. And in such a cold and cruel way. Like I said, I didn't know him towards the end there, but my memories of him will stay sweet. I'll always remember that little trouble making sparkle in his eye....too cute for words baby cousin. If you can hear me right now...I love you.

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Cryin for Me

Wow. Talk about those moments that take your breath away. Earlier today, I was watching Ghost Whisperer...and yes, this is cheesy, but its going somewhere. It was the episode where her best friend dies. She goes on describing their friendship and it sounds so much like me and Josie. She always had my back. She always believed in me. She never doubted anything I said or tried to do. She encouraged me in everything. And this is a time right now I could really use her encouragement. I doubting what I'm doing as far as school and everything I've had to give up. All the things that have kind of crumbled out from under me so I can go back and learn something exciting and new. I'm not feeling like the Melinda everybody knows..and hopefully loves. ;0)
So, I'm sitting here looking over a chapter for a test and just feeling overwhelmed and I decided to check my email in case my group canceled for our project in the morning. There is an email from someone who's name is very similar to her's (only one letter's difference) sitting in my inbox. At first glance it did look like it said Josie...and believe it or not, this song comes on my itunes at that exact second that always makes me think of her. Its called "Crying for Me" by Tobie Keith.
Is my cheer leader trying to tell me to hang in there?
I don't know...but I'm feeling her more than ever right now....
Sometimes its like, just when I think I'm ok...something happens to remind me of her and it blows me away.
Its amazing how much you can love someone. Josie was such a good friend to me. I miss her so much. :0(

I still suck I guess.

So its been a ridiculously long time since I've blogged, and I have actually really wanted to! However, both my computers are down right now. I'm prepared to throw a bomb at my laptop and my desktop is out getting repaired. So, I've been limited in what I can do online for now. I'm at the computer lab at school right now. BOoo! I want my computer back!
So, just wanted to let you know, if you are reading this, that I do plan on continuing this, and will try in the future to be a lot better at it. haha.
Love you guys!

How Strange it is..

...to be anything at all!

How strange it is that we all have two legs, two arms, hands fingers...yet we all look nothing alike.
How strange it is that we all love but we don't all always love each other.

How strange it is that we all sing and dance but we don't all sing or dance with each other.

How strange it is we all have lips and power of speech,but we don't always speak to each other.

How strange it is we all have two ears, but we don't always listen.

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When it rains it rains! lol
Just a little clip off the balcony. There is some empty field there but beyond that we usually have a view of houses, businesses and a shopping center. We could see NOTHING while it was raining!
You will hear me scream...oohh!!! its cooold! LOL

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Thought this was cute...

Juel!

So I was looking through your blog to find that post you left me so I could respond to it but i couldn't find it anymore! wah!
Sooo..I'll try to remember as much as I can!
Princess Lollipop, is my baby cousin! I love her so much, she is so cute and says the funniest things! FYI she is also known as "Dr. Seena." lol. I have no idea where she got that or if I spelled it right, but thats what it sounds like. She's precious! Mark was telling me today that a friend of ours was over there the other day and she asked Ms. Lollipop for a hug before she left. She responded, "I'm not a touchy feely kind of person...so, No." She drew a picture for my dad when he got out of the hospital, she is really good at drawing, and in the corner was a mouse she had drawn. She said, "thats me 'cause I like to eat cheese!"
And the gal in my video is my cousin Tina. She practically grew up with us, she is like a sister. She is living in Hawaii now, I miss her so much!
Thanks for the birthday wishes. I only just turned 27 ya know. *cough* Only because I've been 26 for six years now and felt it was time to move on.....;0) heehee
And thank you for the condolences. It still is really hard, but I try to remember God didn't want her here in pain, but her body was so broken...He took her home where He could make her whole again. And so she is. I know I'll see her again. She's in a beautiful and incredibly loving place. It helps to know that.
And I'm glad I could put a smile on your face! I love you too! I cant tell you how many times you've made me laugh and smile too! And I love hearing about the girls and the little guys! They are all adorable!
Thank you for what you said about my post "I Love Him." I'm glad you enjoyed it! I worry about being preachy but there are just times I feel so blessed I have to just say what I feel. He's blessed me in soooo many ways, I just want to share with everyone! I want everyone to feel that way too! It makes me feel safe to know that He is always there, and answers prayers the way He sees fit, even if its in a way I didn't know I even wanted..:0) I may not always get exactly what I want but always land in a place that is just as good and makes me just as happy.

And hey! I wanted to share this video with you! My friend Cheryl and her friends were featured on Fearnet.com
I thought it was the coolest thing ever and I'm so excited for her! This was a while back..she is the one with the glowy eyes..lol. You'll hear her say "can you hear me?" near the beginning of the video. I know you are into this stuff as much as I am so I thought you'd enjoy it!


AND you will be happy to know I am going back to school! whoo!
Creative Media Here is a link to what I am going to major in. If everything works out the way I hope I'll start in August. I am way excited!



Love you lady!

Life.

Isn't it wonderful!